Today was repertoire day. I think I played for about 1.5 hours. It may have been 2.5?

Tomorrow is practice performance day.

Prelude 4 - I can play sections separately, but things go haywire when I hook them together. The mistakes compound the further I go.

Tambourin - ok

Dress rehearsal - I did NOT focus on tone and dynamics, just like in the studio. I may need to add more of these into my practice schedule.

Practice performance notes:
My speed work on Satie paid off, but I still need CONSTANT VIGILANCE!
I cannot fake my way through Wander. I need to learn this inside and out.
If nothing else, practice even tone. Sheesh.
Move harp to different spots to practice?

Take strobe tuner?

Dress rehearsals are important because you need to know if your zipper unzips itself while you're playing (it does).

Do not try to eat away your feelings of nervousness. 

Goals:
★ Mark calendar
★ Try on dresses
Order pattern?
★ Conditioning exercises
★ Goldfish
★ Automne
☆ 30DtD Tambourin
Set Saturdays as play days?

Goals:
★ Write and send 2 wedding summary/contract
Reply to recording email
★ Put clips online
★ Conditioning Exercises
★ Goldfish - played at 50 need to listen to recording. It's not bad!
☆ 30DtD LGR - Did 2nd to last day. I still seriously mess this up.
☆ Listen to LGR recording - didn't concentrate on whether there were consistent errors.
☆ 30Dtd LGR - last day. It is just a mess. Summary of 30DtD process: It's really hard to know that after all the work I put in it still sounds like crap. Working on the dynamic details was helpful - it helped get me over that hump in my normal learning process. This might have worked better doing one piece at a time.
★ Automne - finished a section and got the 1st large section to the point where I can keep playing if I mess up.
Pick days for practice perf
Read through/research Prog book

Goal:
Figure out how much work I'd have to do to have another practice performance, then schedule it.

Still having weird memory problems today. We'll see how this goes.
Goals:
★ Scales are done!!!
★ Finger mechanics - break out Conditioning Exercises?
★ Work on memorizing Goldfish? Need to set up a practice chart like 30DtD
★ 30DtD LGR (final week!) - record, listen and mark. That was a lot of work. First take was awful. In general the 1st section needs to be smoother like the 3rd section. It sounds thumpy. The waveforms are also smoother in the 3rd section than the 1st. In the middle, the right hand needs to be brought out more. Also, really emphasis dynamics. There are a lot of gasps that need to be smoothed out by more confidence.
30DtD Danza? Not sure I want to continue with this.
★ Automne - got a few more sections sort of memorized
☆ Look through wedding music
Set up another practice performance
1. Set list
2. Practice set list - memorized

Notes from video

Reeeaally need to learn not to lick my lips, or press them together, or do that weird fake-smile thing.
My bangs are too thick.
Look at one thing, either the music or strings, constant head turns are distracting. Basically need to know my music better.
Need to match my facial expressions and hand gestures to the music.

Practice Performance Notes

This was such a good thing to do.  I got really nervous, and I had completely forgotten everything that goes along with that, like turning bright red and then getting even more nervous because of that. And being really tense and shaky.  Maybe nervousness is like pain - you forget how bad it is and get tricked into thinking "Hey, it's not so bad!"

Things to consider:
- tie down my hair so it doesn't get caught in the sharping discs and make a really distracting "plink!" noise EVERY TIME I change a pedal.
- wear lip balm/gloss/stick/ANYTHING so I don't like my lips while playing. Not attractive.

- Make a setlist and stick to it, even if it's just the order I have my music in on the stand, with sticky tabs.
- if playing on hardwood floors, make sure I have quiet shoes.
- when I make a mistake, don't laugh. Reeeally not professional.
- I need someplace to put my music after I'm done with it.

Things that went well:
- I managed to force myself to relax a few times when I noticed I was really tensing up. I managed to do that by both physically relaxing, and asking myself why I was getting so tense since I clearly knew the pieces. Even the pieces that I didn't know well went ok.
- I relaxed more when I chatted between some of the songs.

I'm scared to watch the video recording, though.

ETA: I also forgot about the post-performing post-nervousness blah feeling. Even my eyes hurt.
ETAA: I can play for about 45 minutes before I need a break.